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There’s only one person who needs a glass of water oftener than a small child tucked in for the night, and that’s a writer sitting down to write. (Mignon McLaughlin, The Second Neurotic’s Notebook)
If we didn’t have microscopes, we wouldn’t know what was going on with the whole other world that’s smaller than what we can see with our own eyes. But that doesn’t mean that it doesn’t exist.
Very few people are willing to admit anything that in their mind is a weakness. So, I started being honest for 15 minutes a day and it was excruciating—how I really felt when I felt like I was strong and being clever, what I was really doing was being totally intimidated, trying to make another person feel bad about themselves. I mean, I would rationalize everything. You can justify anything. So, that’s how it started and then after the first six weeks of that 15 minutes of honesty, I was shocked to see what I was really thinking and really feeling.
So, what I did was try to recondition myself. I have to try to work on that every day, but we’re brought up to think a certain way and we’re not even aware of it. There’s always a subtext running beside the conversation that’s happening at the same time. Like right now, both of us at this table are trying to plant our positions. This is not normal. We’re trying to find enough self-worth to come to the table, me included, but it’s a bit different, because you can interview me, and I understand that relationship. But what happens, everytime you have dinner with somebody, you think you’re having a date and there are many things going on at that table.