So I got to see Brianna yesterday while she was in town. I was kind of her last stop before she headed home to the coast yesterday early in the evening. We had planned on doing dinner, but she wanted to meet up earlier so I told her to come pick me up at David’s. She had wanted to go to dinner, and she picked Gustav’s very quickly like she already had it in mind. We hadn’t been there together since two years ago for one of Cynthia’s birthdays. So we drove out there and had a very nice visit over an awesome lunch. I hadn’t seen her in a long time. It was a trip riding as the passenger in her car with her. So weird that she is already driving and almost an adult now. I can hardly believe it. Time seems to have sped up recently and sometimes it is fucking scary to see how it has accelerated everything else. I was happy to see that she looked great. She has maintained a healthy weight, which I struggled more with at her age. She looked young and on the verge of maturing. She looked happy when she smiled, which was pretty important to me. We just talked about people in the family for the most part. I asked her if she was still going to graduate early, and she explained that she will end up a credit or two short of being able to, so she will just have to take a couple classes a day for her senior year. I am sooo glad that she is doing well in school and is really paving her own road out of there. It’s what I should have done. I’m so proud of her. I admire how strong she has been, I really do believe that she’s going to make it and do better than Cynthia or I did and probably will ever do. If it could only be one of us, I would rather it was her than me. I’ll be fine.

So on the way to the restaurant I had sent a text to my buddy Mark who happens to be the head chef at Gustav’s, and asked him if he was working. He said yes, so I told my sister that I had a good friend who worked there and they might come out to say hello at some point. He told me to let him know when we made it there, so I told him where we were sitting and as we were finishing up our food, he found us and sat down next to me for a couple seconds and said hello. I introduced him to Bri quickly, and he said they had been very busy. After he left the table and went back to the kitchen, our waitress came back to take our plates and told us that Mark had taken care of our meals and everything was covered. I was very surprised, and thought it was very cool of him. I sent him a text thanking him right when we left.

Then Brianna took me back to David’s and she drove home.She let me know she had made it like I asked her to, which was good. I should visit mom and dad more often than I do. I love them all so much.

I’ve got to pull through for myself sometime soon. I just have to. I’m counting on it. I guess maybe I’m just late, but I better show up before I run out of time for things important enough to someday turn into regrets if I don’t do something. Soon. Anything.